Emotional Mess

I’m tired of illness

And tears and pain

I’m tired of mood swings

Tired of blame

I’m sick of myself

This body I’m in

What did I do

That this could happen

I’m sick of this lifetime

I need some relief

Turmoil… Emotions…

Anger and grief

Tired of sitting

Dreaming of life

Tired of turmoil

Tired of strife

Positive thinking

Works only so long

Tired of trying

Dear God what is wrong

Can I find strength

Can I keep moving ahead

Moods change rapidly

Then feeling such dread

One day at a time?

More like one minute to next

I get lost in emotion

Or lost in the text

Struggle for meaning

Words break my brain

Struggle for something

Fight past the pain

One moment a smile

The next there are tears

Will there ever be peace

Without all the fear

By Tracy Seekins

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This poem was written during a difficult time. A time when I felt lost and stuck. A time when I felt I couldn't express myself and I felt trapped within. 

We ALL have dark moments but we are never as alone as we think we are.