I WON'T Pretend

I won't pretend. 

You get what you see. 

Some days I really am just that happy 

and other days I'm really struggling more than words can express. 

I won't pretend. 

At least you know I'm honest. 

At least you know what you are getting. 

I always love you. 

And if you are my friend 

I will protect you and defend you fiercely. 

I don't expect any more from you than I'm willing to give. 

I won't pretend! 

Some days I'll let you know I'm in a bitchy mood 

and probably not good company

but it doesn't mean I don't love you 

just that I don't want to hurt you with words I don't mean. 

The pain in my body sometimes makes me a monster

but I'm aware of it most of the time. 

I won't pretend. I won't! 

If I'm not in a good mood you'll know, 

I don't pretend to be happy when I'm not 

or depressed just for attention. 

I don't want things to be this way but they just are 

so you get what you see. 

and 

I won't pretend for anyone!