I'm Learning

I'm learning. Learning to let go. Learning to worry about me as much as if not more than others. I used to give a million chances and excuses for the behaviour of others but I'm learning that there has to be a limit to what I take. I'm learning.

I know everyone has a bad day. I know everyone has difficult moments. I have already learned that I cannot expect from others the behaviour I expect from myself. I logically know that I cannot expect the behaviour from others to match what I expect from myself, but I often get dissappointed anyway because in my heart I still have that hope I guess.

 I've gotten to a point now where at least when it happens I don't get angry anymore. I know it's my own fault for having unrealistic expectations. I'm learning to let those expections go. Sadly, at least for me, I am learning if I must have expectations they have to be a whole lot lower.

Logically I know having expectations is a mistake to begin with but I think we all have expectations of our lives, our friends, the people around us. It is a natural part of us even if we do not readily recognize it.

I'm learning. I'm learning to let go of the responsibility I feel for the world. I can only be responsible for ME. And though logically I have always known that, I know I take far too much on sometimes.

Even though I KNOW these things it's still a lesson I'm learning because I have to learn how to worry about me more than others. I have to learn to let go when my instincts tell me to hang on. I have to learn to accept that another's behaviour doesn't say something about me, it says something about them. And I have to learn that I have limited responisibilities in ALL that I do and stick to what's mine.

I'm getting there every day and talking to amazing people that I have in my life helps me remember these things and think them through before I react to something that I shouldn't even be worrying about.

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